Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Last night, after days of wishing I could have some more iced coffee, I gave in and made some so I would have it this morning. I couldn't wait that long so I had one glass last night. That was a huge mistake. I was bouncing off the walls. I finally went to bed around 3:00. At 4:00, I was still laying there, wide awake, so I figured I might as well get up and do something useful. I sewed for awhile, then did some laundry. Noah woke up around 6:00. I figured I was up for the day then, so I had some more coffee and sat at the computer while Noah slept on my lap until Steve and Emma got up. At this point I have been up for about 40 hours straight. What am I, like 80 years old, that I can't handle a single glass of half decaf coffee? I am really starting to drag now.

Today was Emma's weaning party, and I think it was a success. She had a great time. I was planning on letting her nurse for the last time at the park, but she was sad and crying when we left so we moved the deadline to the end of today. I was sure I'd be elated, but I'm feeling more and more sad the closer we get to the end of the day. Doing it this way is just so final, and that's what's making it hard for me. I got her this plant (during a 1:00 a.m. trip to Price Chopper last night) to symbolize her growing up and gave it to her at the party today. And now I am off to nurse my baby to sleep for the very last time.

4 comments:

earthchick said...

What a beautiful picture - and the plant and the weaning party are such nice ideas. I really admire you for sticking with the nursing for so long. I hope the last time was sweet. It is so hard to keep letting go of things, to watch our babes grow up.

Kara said...

40 hours?! gadzooks woman!

i LOVE the plant idea. hope the party idea sticks.. it did with Lincoln...for the most part. He was 4 in May, weaned on his 3rd bday, and he still asks for nurses. meh.

Milkymommi said...

hugs mama! I can soooooo relate. My now 5 yo weaned last year right around his 4th d-day. I, like you have always been an advocate for child led weaning but found myself gently encouraging it to come to an end. the bottom line is that the nursing relationship has to be healthy on both ends and you're doing what is working for you and your little one! The weaning party... what a wonderful way to celebrate the opening of a new chapter in Emma's little life!!

OC Mama said...

How is the weaning going? I love the plant. :-)