As the new baby's arrival draws closer - about a month away now - I am becoming more and more nervous. How is Noah going to handle suddenly being shoved out of babydom and into middle child status? How am I going to handle having three kids, age four and under? I have heard many people say that the biggest adjustment when having kids is going from no kids to one kid. In my case, that wasn't true at all. When Emma was born, instead of reeling from the shock of having to care for a tiny helpless person before myself at all times, I was so enamored with her that I honestly don't remember there even being any adjustment period. I remember thinking, THIS is what I have been waiting for my whole life. All was great for three years and two months, until I became the mother of two. At that moment, everything that had been so easy before was suddenly much more difficult, and I feel like my quality of mothering (if that makes any sense) dropped considerably. There is always someone getting shafted, and unfortunately for Emma, it's usually her just because she's older. So now I can't help but wonder how another new baby is going to change things, and if having another kid is going to turn me into some crazy, mean, neglectful mommy. Sigh.

In other more light-hearted news, I have a little bit of exciting (for me) news about Emma. For three years she had no hair, and then for another year and a half she refused to wear ponytails, barrettes, headbands, or anything else in her hair. Now, completely out of nowhere, she wants me to put pigtails or barrettes in her hair every day, and then she actually keeps them in! Yay!